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i have been without internet for the past few weeks now, so the chance to update, hell to even check my mail, has come few and far between. Mostly it's whenever I can get over to River Road and steal Wendy's Wi-Fi. And that's what I'm doing now -grins-
And things are, I dunno how they're going at the moment. I want to say that they are getting better, and for the most part I really do believe they are, it's just there is some stuff that is up in the air right now that I am not comfortable with it being in that state.
I am not renewing the lease with Kassie. I am tired of living with a roommate, and $125 a week is to much of a financial burden for her. And i don't want to put her into debt just because I want to stay in Washington Park. Which is what I plan to do. I have started the process of getting myself a one bedroom apartment there. It's around $800 a month for a 750 square foot 1 bedroom apartment.
I know that's a lot, but I really enjoy the area and the apartments are nice- and to be honest, I am tired of moving. I want to stay in one place for more than a year. My friends (plus a certain someone) are all in the area, my job is in the area. I like having a place with a pool and a clubhouse. So I am willing to pay the little extra money for a nice apartment. It just means that I need to get a part time job, and I was going to do that anyway. The only problem as of now is that I have to prove to Washington Park that I can pay for the apartment and not let it be my whole income. Which means I have to prove that I have a second job. Which I am in the process of getting now. It's just kind of frustrating because everything is in the air at the moment. And I thought that everything was all set. And what sucks is that it's across the hall and down about 5 stairs from where I am now. Don't even have to pack up my stuff....
I don't mind the idea of having a second job. In fact, in a way it makes me feel that much more mature. In my mind it means that I am taking my life into my hands and making things work. I am watching out for me and only me. This is something that I need to do at this moment in my life. I can't worry about others- don't get my wrong, I would still help out my friends when they need me, but I can't put myself in a spot by doing so. I have almost faced putting myself in a credit blackhole and it did not feel good. I am 23 years old, I can't be irresponsible anymore. I have to work to earn my living now. Especially since I am on my own- I really can't depend on mommy or daddy to get me out everytime I find myself in a tight spot. They can't afford to get me out of a tight spot. So I just put my nose to the grindstone, and work my butt off at how many jobs I need to to make ends meet, and hopefully save up a bit more. Things would be a lot easier if I had a graphic design job, but I hate to say that searching for one has kind of taken a back seat to just working and sleeping (pretty much all I do) Plus, not having internet access at your house doesn't really help. Put I think that that job will eventually come. I am confident that I will find a job in my field. I'll probably keep at least another job as a part time thing just to get a bit of extra money, but the graphic design job will come.
As I said, life is kind of up in the air right now, but I am confident I will be happy when things come down.
And things are, I dunno how they're going at the moment. I want to say that they are getting better, and for the most part I really do believe they are, it's just there is some stuff that is up in the air right now that I am not comfortable with it being in that state.
I am not renewing the lease with Kassie. I am tired of living with a roommate, and $125 a week is to much of a financial burden for her. And i don't want to put her into debt just because I want to stay in Washington Park. Which is what I plan to do. I have started the process of getting myself a one bedroom apartment there. It's around $800 a month for a 750 square foot 1 bedroom apartment.
I know that's a lot, but I really enjoy the area and the apartments are nice- and to be honest, I am tired of moving. I want to stay in one place for more than a year. My friends (plus a certain someone) are all in the area, my job is in the area. I like having a place with a pool and a clubhouse. So I am willing to pay the little extra money for a nice apartment. It just means that I need to get a part time job, and I was going to do that anyway. The only problem as of now is that I have to prove to Washington Park that I can pay for the apartment and not let it be my whole income. Which means I have to prove that I have a second job. Which I am in the process of getting now. It's just kind of frustrating because everything is in the air at the moment. And I thought that everything was all set. And what sucks is that it's across the hall and down about 5 stairs from where I am now. Don't even have to pack up my stuff....
I don't mind the idea of having a second job. In fact, in a way it makes me feel that much more mature. In my mind it means that I am taking my life into my hands and making things work. I am watching out for me and only me. This is something that I need to do at this moment in my life. I can't worry about others- don't get my wrong, I would still help out my friends when they need me, but I can't put myself in a spot by doing so. I have almost faced putting myself in a credit blackhole and it did not feel good. I am 23 years old, I can't be irresponsible anymore. I have to work to earn my living now. Especially since I am on my own- I really can't depend on mommy or daddy to get me out everytime I find myself in a tight spot. They can't afford to get me out of a tight spot. So I just put my nose to the grindstone, and work my butt off at how many jobs I need to to make ends meet, and hopefully save up a bit more. Things would be a lot easier if I had a graphic design job, but I hate to say that searching for one has kind of taken a back seat to just working and sleeping (pretty much all I do) Plus, not having internet access at your house doesn't really help. Put I think that that job will eventually come. I am confident that I will find a job in my field. I'll probably keep at least another job as a part time thing just to get a bit of extra money, but the graphic design job will come.
As I said, life is kind of up in the air right now, but I am confident I will be happy when things come down.
contemplative